Saudades (two months already!)

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Time goes by
But the pain remains
Sticky and silent
I’m drowning with my own tears

Filipa Moreira da Cruz


Mind the gap

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She flapped her wings
Too soon
She stroke life
Too late.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

One month without you

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People keep saying
Be brave
But I’ve never been brave
Be strong
What if I just can’t?
Move on
My feet are frozen
Life goes on
Until death comes along.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Margarida: 20/06/1954 – 11/01/2023

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Queridos amigos,

O momento que mais temia chegou! A minha mãe partiu esta manhã.
Estarei ausente durante uns dias. Até breve!

Dear friends,

My mother’s body passed away this morning. Her soul is already in another dimension.
I thought I was prepared. Silly me! I will be away a couple of days. Take care!

Chers amis,

Ma mère est morte ce matin. Je n’arrive pas à écrire autre mot. La mort m’a frappée violemment.
Je serai absente quelques jours. À bientôt! Prenez soin de vous.

Queridos amigos,

Mi madre se ha apagado esta mañana. Su cuerpo finalmente trajo paz a su alma.
Voy a estar fuera unos días. Hasta pronto!

Filipa Moreira da Cruz



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Death will never tear us apart
You belong to that special category
You are everywhere
Your voice is in my mind
Your wise advice are dancing in my brain
Your sweet hug keeps me company
All the time
Memories will be my best friend
No matter what
Your body is weak and shrunken
It’s OK
One day, the pain will slide away
But our love will remain
For Eternity
Why would you need a cracked body
If you already have the most important?
A beautiful clear soul
And remember, yours is immortal.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Game over

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You live
You have fun
You try
You love
You run
You wave goodbye

You fall
You breathe
You change
You remain
You forgive
You say it all

You learn
You get old
You cry
You keep the faith
You burn
You die.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Stairway to Heaven

Death is the wish of some, the relief of many, and the end of all.

Lucius Annaeus Seneca

The boundaries which divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where the one ends, and where the other begins.

Edgar Allan Poe
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No one here gets out alive.

Jim Morrison

Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace.

Oscar Wilde
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Unable are the loved to die, for love is immortality.

William Shakespeare

By becoming deeply aware of our mortality, we intensify our experience of every aspect of life.

Robert Greene
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I discovered to my joy, that it is life, not death, that has no limits.

Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Every man’s life ends the same way. It is only the details of how he lived and how he died that distinguish one man from another.

Ernest Hemingway

Loving mother


Lately, life has not been kind to her
And yet, she never complains
She struggles in silence
And has always a warm and kind smile
Her body has shrunk
Although her mind is brighter than ever
They both dance on a different rhythm
Sometimes she wishes to let go
Who am I to blame her?
Darkness hours, sleepless nights
She keeps going for the ones who love her
No matter what
She still paints the sky in blue.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

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Lost and Found


When my soul was in the lost and found you came along and clame it.

Carole King
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My life was predictable
Every day was a long peaceful river
Without mistakes or surprises
No saturday fever
No layz Sundays
No hussle, no fights
Each step was calculated
Each word was measured
You came along
And everything changed
In a blink of an eye
I felt desire under my deep skin
I saw the sun through your smile
The stars and the moon were on my side
Then, I realised
Before meeting you
I was already dead
Burying myself alive
You saved me
I love you
Two souls, one destiny
May we be bonded
Until eternity.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Keep the faith

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For the past twenty years I missed births, engagements, weddings, birthdays…
That’s part of the package of living away from our own country.
I don’t regret my choices.
Wandering around the world has given me so much!
And I love all the countries where I’ve lived so far.
Little did I know that the worst was yet to come.
2020 was a dreadful year for many different reasons.
Unfortunately, 2021 has been a tough one too.
And what can I say about 2022?
When we all thought that the nightmare was behind us this cruel war broke out.
It’s all a matter of seconds.
Oil, gas and cereals too.
While this mad man tries to regain the lost(?) empire
The rest of the world is obsessed with the rise of the prices for essential goods.
As if money were more important than a human life.
I think God is challenging us.
Everything happens for a reason.
So they say…
I often miss my family and friends but now is different.
The guilt keeps chasing me.
I should be there.
Lately, my life is a frame of suppositions.
A puzzle of missing pieces.
And time is my most feared enemy.
I’ll get there, eventually.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz