Lockdown

Reprise

Photo : KaDDD

How do you feel today?
I feel tired, anxious, weird, afraid and lonely
Fair enough…You’re experiencing a new situation

But be reasonable
Concentrate on good things

You’re alive and healthy
You have a roof above your head
You may dance in the kitchen if you want to
You have food
You have water to drink and also to take a shower
You have lot’s of toilet paper!
You have internet connection, a smartphone, a PC and a television
You have books, maybe some of them you don’t even knew they were there
You have friends and family
You have time

So, how do you feel today?
Grateful!

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Going home for Christmas

Tomorrow, I’ll be flying away. Crossing the deep blue ocean. Sharing my secrets with the cotton clouds.
The last time we were all together for Christmas was 10 years ago. My youngest daughter was a baby. Time really flies!
These pictures are even older. They were taken before filters became fashionable. They remind me Lisbon. Home. Family ties. Unconditional love.
Four brothers and sisters, living in four different countries, will meet again where it all began. And they will bring their own families. We’ll speak four languages again.
We will laugh and cry. Of that I’m sure! Because we know the clock is ticking. And this might be our last chance. Sometimes the best is not yet to come. It’s just here and now.
I’ll be offline during a week, at least. Away from the internet and into flesh-and-blood relationships. I will miss you but I’ll be busy hugging and kissing my dear siblings.
I wish you all Happy Holidays! Wherever you are and whoever you are with… Make the best of it! Take care. Be safe. Be happy.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Photos : Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Happy birthday… to me!

44 years of ups and downs
The Earth keeps turning around
Friends and family are my rock
And they know what I’m made of
I’m grateful for all I have
Moving forward step by step
Joyful days, blissful nights
I keep chasing my own lights
Every detail is a poem
In a perfect tandem
Sometimes things don’t work out
That’s what life is all about
Meanwhile, l shall have fun
Because yesterday is already gone
Happy birthday to me
Living wild and free!

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Stairway to Heaven

Death is the wish of some, the relief of many, and the end of all.

Lucius Annaeus Seneca

The boundaries which divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where the one ends, and where the other begins.

Edgar Allan Poe
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No one here gets out alive.

Jim Morrison

Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace.

Oscar Wilde
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Unable are the loved to die, for love is immortality.

William Shakespeare

By becoming deeply aware of our mortality, we intensify our experience of every aspect of life.

Robert Greene
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I discovered to my joy, that it is life, not death, that has no limits.

Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Every man’s life ends the same way. It is only the details of how he lived and how he died that distinguish one man from another.

Ernest Hemingway

Hallow Queen

My daughter took care of the pumpkin
Since orange is the new black
My son made the scary faces
Ugly but sweet
Boooh!
Halloween is back
Trick or treat.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Photos : Filipa Moreira da Cruz (Mathilde’s work)

Let’s go!

What if we only have two minutes left?
What if the stars fall from the sky?
What if our friends are no longer here?
What if the sea drowns all the fishes?
What if there is no future anymore?
What if Earth swallows us up?
What if our family leaves us behind?
What if the sun doesn’t rise?
We must not waste time
Let’s go!

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Photos : Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Troubled thoughts

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Stan and Mathilde keep asking me why they can’t be with the Portuguese family. This Covid thing is taking too long, they say. Lisboa, Tomar, London, Verona… so close and yet… so far!
What’s the point of having two weeks of vacations if we can’t join the ones we love the most, they shoot. Sharp and clear, as usual.
I miss my family and friends that are family too. They are spread all over the world.
That’s the price to pay when you live abroad. Sometimes, it’s just unbearable. Sometimes, it’s too painful.
My soul is shrinking and my body is sore.
We stop counting the days because they turned into weeks, months, years. If only we knew…
For the first time, we are sure that « non andrà tutto bene ».
We will move on, inevitably.
But life will never be the same.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Obstacles

I knew the bad news was lurking, but I decided to go straight ahead.
I avoided the sharp corners.
Firmly.
Without any notice, the pebble turned into a boulder.
And I can no longer kick it and move on.
Sooner or later I have to face reality.
I have my fingers crossed.
Always.
Until then, let’s party!

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Photos : Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Father and son

Dear son,

This song is for you, my reason of beaming
This colourful painting is for you, my reason of living
This poem is for you, my reason of being
This letter is for you, my reason of smiling
This landscape is for you, my reason of believing
This mystic fog is for you, my reason of doubting
This home is for you, my reason of trusting
This love is for you, my reason of moving
Forward…always.

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Photos : Paul Laurent Bressin

Dolce farniente

Here we go!
A whole week ahead of us.
We will certainly make the best out of it.
Just before August ends and on time for « la rentrée ».
The four of us together for seven full days.
Away from home.
Take care!
Be safe!
Be happy!
See you (very) soon!

Filipa Moreira da Cruz

Photos : Filipa Moreira da Cruz